HERE I AM IN CALIFORNIA.

So excite, very anxiety, much broke; job offer waits for background check to strike.

too much to write about so here are some links to things I made:

GOFUNDME --
true story, ok:
I did not want to have to do this but I am completely effing broke and my peeps were all like "you can ask for money it's ok" and I was like ( Read more... )

Josh and I are going to couples' counselling in preparation (or not, as it may turn out) of moving to Colorado ( Read more... )

So fucking tired of emotional growth. Can we get some emotional stagnation up in this bitch? Seriously, I think I could handle stagnating here for a bit ( Read more... )

I have about twenty thousand lists these days because a) moving, moving, pack all the things; b) all the stress from family shit and bad dynamics hasn't magically gone away, whine; c) financial worries (now taken care of, but the money has to go out from me [where it came from you!] and to all of the fifty thousand bills); d) I don't remember what ( Read more... )

Regarding Josh and I living together: I have no idea how I'm pulling this one off but to my surprise, he's still here. We haven't found a house yet, because ofc we haven't, my younger brother (and therefore my access to six+ burly 19 year olds) is leaving for New Zealand next week and if all I had to do on moving day was direct burly shirtless ( Read more... )

Bleh, I just broke my parents' French press. Luckily it was the smaller one of the two, so replacing it should only cost me $50 or so.

-facepalm-

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Barriers to change - Is there anything preventing you from changing? (from the weekly check-in at
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Can't sleep. Clowns will eat me.
Can't sleep.

Can't sleep.

It's six o'clock in the fucking morning, for christ's sake. The only people who are awake are in AUSTRALIA.

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Basically this week has been ( a giant fucking thunderstorm with some very few bright spots )

in the last two days:

• my psychiatrist put me on antipsychotics
• my therapist suggested I shouldn't be so worried about going to the hospital, like, just to take a vacation from my craziness
• Teyla scratched her stomach and acted like she was deathly ill, freaking me the fuck out
• they shut off my internet access because of file-sharing and I had ( Read more... )